Letter to Amy from Ashley
Dear amy,
I logged onto your bebo page today and looked at the pictures of last christmas. We looked so happy.
They made me remember all the good times we spent together. I left you
a message, telling you all about how boring school is. I know you won't
reply though. You never do.
Its been a year since you went missing, an every day since has been empty. We were so close- how could it not be?
when you first dissappeared i told myself you'd taken off with some new
friend, or a new boy. You were 15, and always out at some club,or
chatting to people. I was sure you'd ring any minute to tell me about
your latest crazy adventure. But you didn't.
When the police turned up at my house a few days later, I got scared.
It suddenly seemed so serious. " Just tell us where she is" they said
over and over again- even though I told them I didn't know. It was like
they thought I had something to do with it!
I felt sick. I wanted them to be out looking for you - not to be sat
around questioning me. They thought you'd run away and i knew where you
were. I wished i did. Wherever it was, i'd have been there.
I knew you hadn't run - because you hadn't been in touch. We were so
close there was no way you would leave without telling me. I'd slept
with my phone under my pillow, praying you';d text or call. But the
weeks went by and I didnt hear from you. I'd log onto your bebo page,
hoping for some sign you were ok. But there was nothing, apart from
messages from your family and friends, begging you to get in touch. The
ones from your Dad broke my heart. He wrote, " hi amy its dad. its
nearly 8 weeks since you dissappeared and im going out of my mind with
worry."
every day id obsessively replay the day you went missing, trying to
remember if you'd given me any clues. But there was nothing. It was
just a normal day in town- you dragging me into burger king, us
arranging to meet at mine the next day. But you never came. and when i
called to find out where you were your mum said you hadn't come home
the night before.
Every day is coloured by your dissappearence. When friends come around
for a sleepover, I think "Amy should be here with us". it feels like
theres a big you-shaped hole in my life - like everyone else has got
there best friend and they forget that mine is missing. Sometimes I
need to be alone because i dont think they understand. I don't want to
get a new boyfriend - not when i can't share it with you.
Your 16th birthday in Febuary was so hard. You should have been with
me,chatting about your party. But even though you were'nt around i
wanted to make a big fuss over you. Me and your other friends got
balloons an wrote " Happy sweet 16 Amy" on them. we took them to our
tree - the one where we used to sit and talk for hours - and let them
go. I'd hoped you would find one an relise how much we missed you.
It sounds awful but sometimes i'd wish there was bad news, Just so i'd
know what happened. I feel like im in limbo. But most of all, i just
want you back.
If your reading this Amy, please get in touch. Your not in trouble and
shouldn't be scared to come home - every one misses you so much.
I've arrranged a gathering of your friends on the anniversary of the
day you went missing, so we can remember how special you are. I'll
never forget you, Amy, and i'll make sure no one else does either.
all my love
Ashley xx

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